Happiness Starts With You..

We all want to be happy, however are we looking in the right places..

I realise that for as long as I can remember I seek for happiness in others (never put the key to your own happiness in someone else's pocket) in a relationship, in a job, within my friendships or even with money but finally it has dawned on me.. its not about having someone to cherish me, inspire me, motivate me, support me or to keep me focused & make me happy..I heard recently the term "people pleaser" I,m not to sure i like that reference to myself! 

 I need to look within, at myself.. stop searching in all the things above & find those things in myself.

I'm responsible for my own happiness....

My happiness daily I've come to notice depends on my outlook, my willingness & actions to make the best of each & everyday.. even on the days that i would consider a bad day,(mainly when my anxiety is in full swing)  or if things just do not go the way id hoped or planned, those days which feel like everything is a struggle or just plain difficult, those days I choose to reflect & look for the blessings & what I am grateful for..after all isn't happiness a state of mind?

A lot of events that have occurred in my life.. I think its been how i react to them & my thought process at the time that have either left me feeling upset,sad,annoyed at myself or happy with the way I have dealt with/handled them or just plain avoided dealing with..my choices have lead me exactly where I am today.

I'm also learning that I need to empty myself & avoid negativity.. it doesn't sit well inside me.. I would much rather fill myself with positive feelings & be around people too who like me,who like me, carry hope with them, compassion, love & gratitude.. we need to work on our happiness every single day, take action to do so. 

My happy.. I will find you with steps I am taking daily.. doing my best to rid the negative emotions & basically just be at peace with myself, because if I am not feeling good then how do i expect to be happy?

 Do ONE thing everyday that makes you happy

Its Okay If You Fall Down & Lose Your Spark..Just Make Sure That When You Get Back Up.. You RISE As The Whole Damn Fire!

Im making my way back.. 

Those of you that know me are aware just how many times life has knocked me down..how I have seen things I never wanted to see, felt judged by so many (hurts more when its from the ones you love) listened to things that have brought me insecurities, sadness & at times felt like a failure..its usually at the darkest of times where I dig real deep & wrestle with my demons to find that inner strength needed for the breakthrough that I know will follow..

To earn those best days of your life, usually before them there's that fight through the bad days..

There are many wounds I have carried & some for far too long.. however my biggest motivation is my 5 children & for them I will keep pushing harder & never give up..

Time to show my light..to shine.. to get Natt her happy back..

WATCH THIS SPACE..

Its about time I re ignite my passion..follow my dreams.. lose that extra weight I have been carrying (not just physically)!!

Even in your darkest moments, try & find something Beautiful