Introduction to my crazy life!!

I am Strong.. I believe in myself & I will not give up.. Watch m e  Here's just a few ways I have felt literally for many many many years now & I now realise..I have just been getting in my own way! Self Conscious.. Shame.. Self-Focused on my own pain & other peoples behaviours.. Disgust & Embarrassment.. No t being Enough.. Self Critical & Ashamed I know.. I really have not helped myself one bit..So much for turning down those child counselling sessions.. Instead I resorted to writing in my diary..which I recall, being scented.  And it had a lock & key (lost that years ago, feel for whoever may have found that)!  I think it was a present either from my parents or aunt. I'm not sure when..but at some point I stopped writing.  A very close friend of mine recently said to me the reason why I am spoken to or sometimes treated like a victim by others is because that's how they see me. Those wo...

Self Labelling..   How it impacts our Mental Health & how we see & feel about ourselves Throughout my life, not only have I spoke many words to myself that I now realise I attached to.  I also have allowed people to attach labels on me too. These labels have not only reflected and affected how I see & feel about myself but also how others identify and think about me too. Very recently, Sunday in fact.  My 16 year old asked me "Mum, why are you not confident" as many of you know,  I am a deep thinker.  I wasn't able to fully answer him but I did say "Life, myself and people have had an impact on my confidence, as I have allowed that" He replied "You used to be though and still should be Mum". These words too have stayed with me. He definitely touched something within me & after thinking about this a lot recently, searching for ways to being a more self confident me (I have recently been studying Psychology & CBT (C...

We Are All A Little Broken Whats broken CAN be healed..  Its been a very long & painful journey at times but I think I,m now finally learning a few lessons & recognises all the hurt &  I,m now taking steps to heal & have realised that no matter how dark life can be at times, its temporary..by taking that time to heal, it doesn't mean that the cause of the pain, the damage never existed it just means that you are no longer going to let it control your life. Patience will be needed & give yourself all the time you need..so many different aspects to healing yourself, one of them being forgiveness.. its a gradual process.. The actual "comeback" is actually an ongoing trip. I feel so grateful that I have been lucky to have supportive people around me who understand myself & try also to understand my struggles.. sometimes daily.  I,ve not always been "fine" or "okay" but more so I like to think of myself now as BR...

Happiness Starts With You .. We all want to be happy, however are we looking in the right places.. I realise that for as long as I can remember I seek for happiness in others (never put the key to your own happiness in someone else's pocket) in a relationship, in a job, within my friendships or even with money but finally it has dawned on me.. its not about having someone to cherish me, inspire me, motivate me, support me or to keep me focused & make me happy..I heard recently the term "people pleaser" I,m not to sure i like that reference to myself!   I need to look within, at myself.. stop searching in all the things above & find those things in myself. I'm responsible for my own happiness... . My happiness daily I've come to notice depends on my outlook, my willingness & actions to make the best of each & everyday.. even on the days that i would consider a bad day,(mainly when my anxiety is in full swing)  or if things just ...

Its Okay If You Fall Down & Lose Your Spark..Just Make Sure That When You Get Back Up.. You RISE As The Whole Damn Fire! Im making my way back..  Those of you that know me are aware just how many times life has knocked me down..how I have seen things I never wanted to see, felt judged by so many (hurts more when its from the ones you love) listened to things that have brought me insecurities, sadness & at times felt like a failure..its usually at the darkest of times where I dig real deep & wrestle with my demons to find that inner strength needed for the breakthrough that I know will follow.. To earn those best days of your life, usually before them there's that fight through the bad days.. There are many wounds I have carried & some for far too long.. however my biggest motivation is my 5 children & for them I will keep pushing harder & never give up.. Time to show my light..to shine.. to get Natt her happy back.. WATCH THIS SPACE....

" TAKE small steps each day.. you might  NOT get there Today .. but you'll be closer than Yesterday " You would think that taking tiny little steps daily wouldn't bring about change or seem kind of trivial, right?!   However I'm here to tell you, that's not true.. in fact any steps in the right direction for me have meant better than not taking any at all.. Keep moving.. keep pushing through those hurdles/obstacles.. even if the results are not instant, trust me you'll see results.. you'll cover some distance.. DO NOT give up Today I saw a post that is inline with what I have just said & I love to share with you.. if it brings about changes for even one person alone.. ill be happy :) FOLLOW these sixteen steps below to HAPPINESS Push yourself to get up before the rest of the world, start with 7am, then 6am, then 5.30am..pop on that big coat & scarf, go the nearest hill & watch the sunrise. Push yourself to fall asleep earlier...